28aug2013 Wednesday

I thank God because...

Although I played shit in the rehearsals today, I was still blessed with a good time with N & his friends at Rubato. It is such great joy sharing music with friends and even strangers!

I also give thanks to God for staying so calm when I talked to K tonight. Lord, help me to accept the glaring facts and situation. Lord, help me to want nothing but You. Lord, help me to focus on You. Lord, teach me to pray for my future husband, wherever he may be. Lord, search my troubled and lonely heart and fill me with your goodness and love. 

Lord, teach me to count my blessings and want nothing more. 
Please.
My heart's desires are endless.
Please help me to trust in your providence.
Please.

24aug2013 - Saturday

A week passes so quickly you don't even realise it.
This is us. This is me.
Hustle bustle.
Running around.
Getting busy.
Being busy.
Always busy.
There is always something to do, someone to meet, something to plan, something to think.

For goodness sake, slow down.
Take a moment.
Take a breather.
Take a pause.

Think about God.
Ponder on His love.
Give thanks for His mercy.
Be grateful for His blessings.
Be humbled by His discipline.

I give thanks to God....

For the salvation that has been granted to me. I did not work for this. I did not take an exam for this. Nothing in this world could help me qualify or obtain this salvation. No amount of money, worldly fame or glory could move me an inch closer to God for I am born sinful.

For the reminder that I do not praise or exclaim God in order to get things from God. Lord, teach me and remind me that my heart and voice seeks and worships you because I love you, because I want to be obedient, because I want to find out Your will for my life. I commit my plans, my fears, my thanksgiving. I pray for others. I pray for myself. I pray about desires. But Lord, you provide what is necessary. You will provide what will contribute to Your plan. Lord, help me to accept and be grateful for your providence. Not to ask for more, but to ask how more can I do for You.

19aug2013 - Monday

I thank God because...

H got her landlady situation resolved... I finally decided on buying the C6 piano... and we have confirmed the flat at Holland V. Three blessings in one day. We are so blessed. Lord, you are so gracious.

How can I even ask for more? 

18aug2013 Sunday

I thank God because...

In the midst of feeling lost, I find inside the sinful me to turn to you oh Lord. Because you perfectly comprehend my innermost desires. Because you see my longing for a companion, for a meaningful strong & protective relationship and yet You will do what is best for me, according to Your will and Your time. Because only Your love would comfort me when I feel most alone.

Because You loved me first.

17aug2013 Saturday

I thank God because...

I survived sight-reading tons of music from 10am till 5pm! Plus teaching L from 5.30pm till 7.00pm. But most of all, I thank God for such a wonderful dinner and relaxing time with H at Holland V. We went to our 老地方 for ramen, then walked about the shops. H also checked out the Vibram shoes and now both of us are keen to get them and do weekend early morning walks at Botanical Gardens (which is only 2 stops away on circle line from our place!).

I'm so glad. Thank you Lord.

16aug2013 Friday

I thank God because...

God has provided F & G with each other, for love and companionship, for support an encouragement as they live out their lives together, serving You in their respective ministries in church. Who would have thought? But You, oh Lord. You have everything in plan. You have everything in control. 

So thank you Lord for bringing them together. For holding them in your hands. For loving them, and filling their hearts with love so that they may love each other and everyone around them.

15aug2013 Thursday

I thank God because...

I was feeling so tired from teaching and my feet were blistering from my new shoes... and he sent Sihui my way. My BFF. She agreed to rent the holland v place with me for 9 months. I didn't even ask her, cos I thought the rent was way out of her budget. That takes a big deal of my anxiety off my mind. Thank you Lord. Please teach me not to worry about the future yet, but to trust in You for all things. You will provide accordingly. Might not be exactly what I want, but you know what I need and what is best, for your kingdom and glory first. Teach me to be obedient. Teach me to be joyful. Teach me to surrender all my desires & worries to you.