I thank God because...
He has blessed me with a dear sister R. For through all these 19 years, we have come a long way from just being classmates at the back of the classroom, to playing Mariah Carey's Hero in music class together, doing a biology research project (and getting into bad books with TSC as a result), drifting apart during junior college days, throwing her out of my Stirling Road apartment in anger, to sharing the deepest desires and frustrations in our lives as God's children.
Fact is, R knows me in and out. And among all my gfs, she has gone through a hell lot with me. She's travelled with me, she's gone canyoning with me, she's hand-glided with me, she's cycled on the swiss highways with me, she's quarrelled with me, she's patched up with me, she's got thrown out of a house by me, she's cried with me, she's rejoiced with me, and she has chilled out with me. R is special. A very special friend that God has blessed me with.
And today, I so proud of her - she delivered a sound and clear sermon on Isaiah chapter 36-38. And her message touched me. For it reminded me that what we really need is God. Sometimes I forget that. Actually I'd admit that I forget that way too often. I clamour not for God but for a man who is Godly, thinking that would ease my insecurities and loneliness. But would it? God who is so holy and all-knowing - would He not know what best to provide for me for the glory of His kingdom? If he wanted to, He would. Like in Isaiah, he sends an angel and 185,000 dies overnight in the enemy's camp. What could be impossible for a God who has created the cosmics and breathed life into us? And when God so bless us, would I forget his blessings and providence, and attribute my success to my mortal effort?
Perhaps these past weeks have unveiled themselves this way such that I would once again draw my water from the everlasting spring of life, to quench this thirst that has choked my heart again and again.
To trust and obey.
To wait in faith.
To focus on Him.
To love God first.
This I will do.