28aug2013 Wednesday

I thank God because...

Although I played shit in the rehearsals today, I was still blessed with a good time with N & his friends at Rubato. It is such great joy sharing music with friends and even strangers!

I also give thanks to God for staying so calm when I talked to K tonight. Lord, help me to accept the glaring facts and situation. Lord, help me to want nothing but You. Lord, help me to focus on You. Lord, teach me to pray for my future husband, wherever he may be. Lord, search my troubled and lonely heart and fill me with your goodness and love. 

Lord, teach me to count my blessings and want nothing more. 
Please.
My heart's desires are endless.
Please help me to trust in your providence.
Please.

24aug2013 - Saturday

A week passes so quickly you don't even realise it.
This is us. This is me.
Hustle bustle.
Running around.
Getting busy.
Being busy.
Always busy.
There is always something to do, someone to meet, something to plan, something to think.

For goodness sake, slow down.
Take a moment.
Take a breather.
Take a pause.

Think about God.
Ponder on His love.
Give thanks for His mercy.
Be grateful for His blessings.
Be humbled by His discipline.

I give thanks to God....

For the salvation that has been granted to me. I did not work for this. I did not take an exam for this. Nothing in this world could help me qualify or obtain this salvation. No amount of money, worldly fame or glory could move me an inch closer to God for I am born sinful.

For the reminder that I do not praise or exclaim God in order to get things from God. Lord, teach me and remind me that my heart and voice seeks and worships you because I love you, because I want to be obedient, because I want to find out Your will for my life. I commit my plans, my fears, my thanksgiving. I pray for others. I pray for myself. I pray about desires. But Lord, you provide what is necessary. You will provide what will contribute to Your plan. Lord, help me to accept and be grateful for your providence. Not to ask for more, but to ask how more can I do for You.

19aug2013 - Monday

I thank God because...

H got her landlady situation resolved... I finally decided on buying the C6 piano... and we have confirmed the flat at Holland V. Three blessings in one day. We are so blessed. Lord, you are so gracious.

How can I even ask for more? 

18aug2013 Sunday

I thank God because...

In the midst of feeling lost, I find inside the sinful me to turn to you oh Lord. Because you perfectly comprehend my innermost desires. Because you see my longing for a companion, for a meaningful strong & protective relationship and yet You will do what is best for me, according to Your will and Your time. Because only Your love would comfort me when I feel most alone.

Because You loved me first.

17aug2013 Saturday

I thank God because...

I survived sight-reading tons of music from 10am till 5pm! Plus teaching L from 5.30pm till 7.00pm. But most of all, I thank God for such a wonderful dinner and relaxing time with H at Holland V. We went to our 老地方 for ramen, then walked about the shops. H also checked out the Vibram shoes and now both of us are keen to get them and do weekend early morning walks at Botanical Gardens (which is only 2 stops away on circle line from our place!).

I'm so glad. Thank you Lord.

16aug2013 Friday

I thank God because...

God has provided F & G with each other, for love and companionship, for support an encouragement as they live out their lives together, serving You in their respective ministries in church. Who would have thought? But You, oh Lord. You have everything in plan. You have everything in control. 

So thank you Lord for bringing them together. For holding them in your hands. For loving them, and filling their hearts with love so that they may love each other and everyone around them.

15aug2013 Thursday

I thank God because...

I was feeling so tired from teaching and my feet were blistering from my new shoes... and he sent Sihui my way. My BFF. She agreed to rent the holland v place with me for 9 months. I didn't even ask her, cos I thought the rent was way out of her budget. That takes a big deal of my anxiety off my mind. Thank you Lord. Please teach me not to worry about the future yet, but to trust in You for all things. You will provide accordingly. Might not be exactly what I want, but you know what I need and what is best, for your kingdom and glory first. Teach me to be obedient. Teach me to be joyful. Teach me to surrender all my desires & worries to you.

14aug2013 Wednesday

I thank God because...

(this post is late)
I slept soooo much ..which felt really good except it all seemed quite lazy on my end. Good rest.

13aug2013 Tuesday

I thank God because...

I had a day to rest which I didn't do much except to learn a few pages of my Brahms violin sonata! Rest is good, considering Thurs-Sun would be CRAAAAZY busy. Also thank God for a nice surprise bb has gotten me in HK. :) What will it look like? :)

12aug2013 Monday

I thank God because...

He has given me a last min but $100 paying accompaniment job today! Despite that the travel journey is long and time-consuming, but I was free to do it and the money certainly helps. 

Also thank God for P's flat at Holland Village, that she's willing to rent it to me below market rate. The flat is spacious enough and uncluttered (which I really like). I will do my best to take care of it while I live there. Praying that the papers can be signed properly, terms agreed happily on both sides, a suitable housemate can be found soon before Sep, and that God will continue to provide for the payment of the rent.

11aug2013 Sunday

I thank God because...

Despite so much music to learn in such a short time, God has given me a chance to do what I love for a living. Accompaniment, teaching, etc. All of this, I find tiring (and sometimes frustrating but very enjoyable. I need to remember that each lesson and each rehearsal, God presents me an opportunity to inspire a younger musician, to impart new skills and some life experience, to be a living testimony of His love. 

Lord, use me!

10aug2013 Saturday

I thank God because...

He had given me strength and energy to get through non-stop teaching from 11.30am till 4.00pm today. He had given Lion as a friend since I was 13, someone I trust and care about. We went to view the Yamaha C6 today and he agreed that it's a good piano. Then we caught up with one another, talking about life, his daughter S, etc over MacDonalds at this really remote place (never knew this place existed!). He's one of the few friends where I can just talk honestly and feel so safe speaking my mind. Thank you Lord for this friendship. I will treasure it very much in this lifetime.

09aug2013 Friday

I thank God because...

Kim is pregnant!!!!!!!!! Praise God! Thank God! I know Kim & CJ have been trying for a baby for the last 2 years and there the miracle is... residing safely in the comforts of a womb. :) As a friend, I'm feeling so excited I cannot even explain why! And there you have it, a wonderful reason to thank God.... for creating a life, for giving my friends the amazing chance to be parents. And I'm officially booked to be little baby's piano teacher when he turns four. Hehe. Can't wait! :)

08aug2013 Thursday

I thank God because...

HY has grown in her relationship with God. She's been going to church (I'm excited, and really looking forward to visit her church in Oct when I no longer have to work Sundays) and she's been getting a lot of prompting and answers through God's word (bible). It's amazing what God would do to bring his people to him. I still remember talking to L when we were in high school about sharing the gospel with HY and YP, praying for them, etc. And now after all the pain and misery HY has gone through, she has found God. I guess everything happens in God's time, in God's will.

07aug2013 Wednesday

My first post.

What is this?

This is a personal blog where each day I can write down at least one or more things to give God thanks for. The idea came about when I was walking on the bridge connecting the Habourfront bus terminal to Habourfront building yesterday evening around 7pm. Just two nights ago, I struggled through a long and lonely night, fighting and sorting desperately through my tangled emotions, desires, logic. As one who is generally positive and joyful (if I may dare say), that night I had hit a new low. I was crying, I was confused, I was anxious, I was scared. I even found it impossible to pray. Plain torment. But because of what has happened, I realised yet again, that above all things, I need God first. 

He is the giver of life, hope, love, and all things which are good.

Hence, this blog has been created. K came up with the address name.

A way to pen down my thanksgiving. 

An outlet to reflect upon the blessings I have seen, heard or received. 

A reminder of the good and hope that exists.

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.  -Psalms 62:1


I thank God because...
He has drawn me to Him in the first place. I would not have come to know him or love him if he had not come to me first. And because of Jesus, He has made it possible for me to once again reconcile with Him because Jesus paid the death penalty (my dealth penalty) for my sinful nature and deeds. Because God is so good, so merciful, so gracious. Because God is all knowing, in control, has a plan.